I have a well-crafted idea of who I am. I am smart, kind, hard-working, generous, easygoing, funny, honest and caring. I know I fall short of my ideal but I’m honest with myself and humble to the evidence and logic that life presents me. I am not so egotistical to have created a crest for myself but I have envisioned it. This Self I must let go. I must give this all to Christ who gave all for me.

Galatian 2:20 I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me.

I understand this logically but have only come to understand how desperately I cling to this idea of self. I am very proud of my humility. The burden of this Self I impose upon my family, friends and coworkers. I chose my words and deeds carefully, caring too much of everyone’s opinion. I wish to give my life to God but in practice I have lived my life for this idea of self.  I am broken and can’t continue in this manner. When I put myself in his hands only then can I be lifted high.